So..yesterday...

So, yesterday I went for a walk with my aunt, considering I start the training next week, right? SWEET mother we walked 20 minutes, I wanted to die...yeah you read that 20 minutes. *sigh* But, I found out my uncle is getting tested for prostate cancer...from my aunt who is in a 5-year remission for breast cancer. *again sigh* I wanted to die...no joke. They have come into my life and they don't judge me like my parents -- this is my mom's sister. I am still kind of taken back.

So, today, I am in pain...yeah....making lemon bars.....2 sticks of butter, 2 cups of sugar 4 eggs...shall I go on? GEEZ!?

I want to crawl into a closet......seriously..no joke I want to cry. I am NOT sure I can do this......I HATE FAILURE. I hate it....but ......

yeah.. exactly..

I seriously am not looking forward to this anymore. WHy!? I was soo excited about it.. cause I talked to my personal trainer she said sure, you can do it BUT alot of cardio work will be needed, yeah I seen that per Josh's training schedule.

I am prayer and I talk to God, yeah I am religious and I am figuring out why he wants me to do a tri...it takes ALOT of dedication...to myself. I fear I don't have it....I lost it about 14 years ago....well some of my high school friends would say otherwise....

I will keep you posted. I am still looking for sponsers....as I need a decent bike...and for the actual race..its $65 and its for many GREAT organizations. Here is the web-site: http://www.millenniumtriathlon.com/

So, if you know anyone who has a bike they want to get rid of etc. let me know please. (it won't be for like 2-3 months -- unless i get a good sponsor or few.)

much hugs....*sigh*

~~Triathlon~~

Okay, here is the scoop.

I am doing it. LOL Straight to the point.... =D I will not lie.

I had my friend do a search and he found one in Chi-Town it was a bit costly so he found one here..in Grand Rapids! August 8th...whew. I have alot of work to do.

I am looking for people to support and sponsor me....both. =D If you are able to do one or both...awesome! Let me know.

I will start training next week, yes I am leaving for Spring Break, but I have to be true to me -- for once. I will. The hotel has a workout area with all the things I need to do to work out.

Don't hesitate to ask questions, etc. I appreciate the support/sponsorship now...

don't look for me in the front of the line -- if I am..its a miracle! Like seriously. I am doing this to prove to myself I am strong, able, and capable.

Today

Today at Sister Time we learned something valuable....that God wants to be in your life 24/7...to help you with the smallest things, to talk to him every moment. I was going to wait until tomorrow morning to start but figured I would test it...just to see.

I made dinner, I hate cooking. I had a recipe out and didn't look at it. I just did it. Which if ANYONE knows me I hate cooking I avoid it at all costs. I am a baker.

I sat down tonight to do some research and some how found my way to triathlon things...like articles on never too big to tri...etc. Am I making a decision to do it? I have no idea....is it being made for me..I don't know. I will test the waters tomorrow -- of course I am all about testing and pushing.